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In a moment of weakness... [03 Jul 2008|06:35pm]
It's been almost a year since I did anything more than stalk other people through this journal. But this summer, and it's not over yet, contains so many experiences I'm afraid I will forget some of them if I don't write them down.

Since my last real post, I have been to Rolex again. And this time I volunteered and got so see some of the competitors up close. It was like...a horse show. Which sounds like an obvious statement, but I guess I had built it up in my mind to something completely separate from the realm of the 'normal'. This disillusionment was actually a very good thing, because now I feel like my goals are more attainable than ever.

And at the same time I have a greater understanding of my own skills and just how lacking they are. Everything I have needs work, and I don't even have everything yet. But I have an amazing job and if I can keep it, I think I still have a chance.

That said, I work a lot. I was expecting to have a couple of part-time jobs, but it's turned into one full-time and one part. I work 11 or 12 hours a day 6 or 7 days a week. I'm tired and cranky and dirty at the end of the day, but for some reason I keep getting up in the morning to do it all over again. I am hoping this is a good sign.

Blogging loses its charm pretty fast, so I'll make a list.
I have been:
Pulled over
Stepped on
Yelled at

I have also been:
Complimented in a big way
Given confidence
Pushed to get better

and I saw Radiohead in St. Louis.

Unbelievable [24 Oct 2007|02:29pm]

[01 May 2007|11:15pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I feel like I just started college and freshman year is almost over. One last final tomorrow, then I pack up my things and leave on Thursday. I will only be home for a few days, then I go to my new job at a training barn in Indiana. It will be exciting and terrifying, exhausting and amazing..and I am going to be so freaking buff.
And almost topping the clinic last semester was the Rolex 3-Day event. This is what I want for the rest of my life:

Edit: 20 hours fall semester. Please let the new cross country instructor be good.


[24 Oct 2006|12:02pm]
[ mood | sick ]

I sound like a man and I'm pretty sure I'm dying. But I must resist until Saturday! I'll be damned if I miss David O'Connor because of a cold.
More tea is required.


For my birthday... [13 Sep 2006|09:27pm]
[ mood | chipper ]


5 | <3

[04 Sep 2006|11:05am]
[ mood | dorky ]

I think the novelty is beginning to wear off and now I miss home, my cat probably moreso than my parents. And boys. Just in general. Because there are a total of five here. Estrogen much?
Also, I have turned into a neat freak and a morning person. Maybe it's the the freaking SUN that shines its ass through my window every goddamn morning at 6:30.
On the bright side, I am bored to tears in my statistics class. Thanks IB?


[21 Aug 2006|05:09pm]
Advanced Hunt Seat--MW
Equine Management--MWF
Theory of Huntseat--TBA
Stephens Success--MW
Honors Composition--TR
Honors Lit--TR
Intro Statistics--MWF

17 credits

And I am surounded by people with the same interests and who know what I mean when I start talking about horsey things--this is amazing.
4 | <3

[20 Aug 2006|07:46pm]
I. am. here!


Equestrian placement assessments are tomorrow morning and I am extremely nervous.

But now I have to finish unpacking..
2 | <3

[15 Aug 2006|01:18am]
August 19th I am GONE.
As in...moving out. wow!

I have been looking forward to this for months, but now that it's almost here I want to dig a little hole and hide away in it for a little while longer.
And it's dawning on me as I try to pack; I'm not staying there overnight. I have to bring more than my toothbrush. I'm picking up my life and moving it elsewhere--jesus I have a lot of crap. I was in target the other day buying everything that I use but never really thought about having because it was always there. It made me want to simplify and live with less. Apparently living is difficult without shampoo and cotton balls and a lamp for my desk. And then two weeks after I move in the horse has to move in. And with her a whole new set of crap that I wish I didn't need.

On the bright side--I get to quit my job!
2 | <3

I'm late with this, but what else is new? [16 Jul 2006|10:29am]
[ mood | mellow ]


HL English 6
HL Chem 4 (pass!!)
HL Philosophy 5
HL History 4
SL German 5
SL Math Studies 7

Diploma Awarded, Bitches.

1 | <3

[27 Apr 2006|05:06pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

philosophy final essay?
eff that.


[23 Apr 2006|11:04am]
[ mood | panicked ]

I have spent this entire weekend thinking I had my first IB exam on Tuesday. In reality, I have over a week before they start. help!


[13 Jan 2006|11:22pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

I got into college.
Stephens College: Columbia, MO

I don't think it has sunk in yet, but my parents are floating around the house giving me hugs. Think they were worried? Anyway, I got one, maybe a couple of scholarships and soon I get to think about dorm rooms. No, it really hasn't sunk in yet...

8 | <3

[19 Dec 2005|07:14pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'd like to give a big 'Fuck You' to the person who is making me redo 6 hours of work before tomorrow. Love ya.

edit: I would also like the thank the furnace for going out. awesome.

4 | <3

[18 Dec 2005|11:06am]
[ mood | stressed ]

could german not be so hard?

so far it takes me one hour to write 100 words and that is barely a minute of speaking.

kill me?

edit: someone make me more tea..

7 | <3

[28 Nov 2005|02:52pm]
To be elligible for academic all-state you need a 30 on your ACT or a 1350 on your SAT.
I have a 29 and a 13-fucking-40.

Adam said it best: God hates me.
1 | <3

[21 Nov 2005|09:25pm]
[ mood | cold ]

this is the first time i have cried over stretch in a little while. usually i just force myself to think of something else, but i still miss my baby. i wish he could come back.


[06 Nov 2005|10:55pm]
[ mood | awake ]

who else is pumped for harry potter??

6 | <3

[05 Nov 2005|10:43pm]
i bet this was adam in the womb..

I adopted a cute lil' batman fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

[30 Oct 2005|04:14pm]
[ mood | confused ]

i cant even sleep because i can't stop coughing. but that might be for the best since every time i stop doing things to think i go back over the crash in my head and its scares me. i'm not really sure how i am going to get to school tomorrow, maybe i'll dig my bike out of the basement. the fucker who hit me wasnt carrying insurance so i'm not really sure what's going to happen next.

2 | <3

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